realization

i've
i've cried enough times to know how to make myself stop
to calm my mind
and deep breath

and
and i've lived enough
i've lived enough
to know,
to know the dark eyes wide.
and so when the light shines full on my face
it blinds and blinds and blind
and i take more than awhile
for the pupils to dilate to adjust to the light
to know
that i am in the presence of the light.
that the dark is gone.
that there is shadow only behind.

i know and i know and i know
and i plan and plan and plan plan
but in the end
i didn't even see the light
that hits me full
and then i know and know and really know
the tears come and come and
my heart feels
and grows
and i know